ManArtLaundry(yet again)

I should be doing so much shit right now-

-laundry (it will ruin my life I swear)
-cleaning my room
-cleaning my apartment
-graduating
-possibly being with a man
-building my art portfolio

Oh well. I'll write a blog...

So feeling a little down the last few days, why? I don't know. I should be happy, one of my closest friends moved in, and it's the beginning of the summer. Relaxing and working is what I should be doing, however, I guess it's not happening. I should be in a relationship. The sticky and sweet one. My mom said it right, I'll be in one when I want to be in one. I think subconciously I don't want one. College relationships are complicated. I am currently "socializing" with a male, and I guess, we just have a weird friend thing. Friends for too long, then it gets complicated and then no one wants to dissect our relationship. I sure as fuck don't. W'ell see i guess. I don't want to ruin whats going on now. Maybe he'll hit his head one day and show up at my door, but i doubt it.

Great sex. I think he knows it's great sex but doesn't know what to do with it. I sure don't.

I really need to start getting going with my art portfolio. It sucks and if I want a J.O.B. well then I need to get a good one, and fast. I really want an artshow next year...really good for my resume.

I wish I didn't smoke. I might feel better, and I am talking about both substances. They kill me I am sure of it. But i figure...I'm in college. I'm supposed to feel like crap, and look like crap too.

I think I have procrastinated enough.

Back to laundry and cleaning, I'll get to that man eventually.


currently listening to:
"You're Face"
Pepper